What the??!! LOL!! I know im stupid but like below 50%?? Gosh...speechless. Oh well, nevermind..at least im smarter than 40% of others =P~~ Hmmm 151 of IQ..wonder its good or bad=\
Ahhh!!~Its been so long since I sign in Blogger..-.- then i finally decided some update must be done somehow and yep,im here...........(<.< *what??!!..lost in words......) Seriously, I got nothing to write =\..
Okay FINE!!!
Here's a message for YOU: Dont mess with me or i'll giv u a piece of my mind..so stay away from me!!Dont you ever feel tired saying those pointless empty sentences which contribute nothing but a waste of time listening to it? Its not like you cant say anything nice...its just..arghh..if u meant to say something to make other laugh, at least think before you open your mouth..They say anyone has sense of humour...i doubt it now... What you yourself think is funny, other might not think so. Your ridiculous sentences are testing my patience each day and getting steps closer to the limit.
Ooh and, please dont tell me or her and another her anything about your pathetic 'plans'. I or We have no interest in it. Tell it to other who cares... And and, I just cant believe you could have negative feelings towards that 'nice girl'. You did'nt say it out but we all know you ''bs''(=P) her. Hmmph!!
Okay...much much better~...
Im good =D
Ja Ne~
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Tummy Yummy......Or Not
Booya~
After taking advice from the president of the counsellor of my school =P who happened to sit beside me, i realised that some content I wrote in mt previous blog may cause emotional disturbance to someone who is close to me =). Well, i would like to ''eat'' back what I said previously and never mention anything about the incident anymore if it would make you happy. Better now? =)
Btw, my tummy hurts =(..I think I have taken something that does'nt agree with me..... hmmm..what did i ate yesterday? Well...Hokkien mee for lunch..extra spicy curry and bread for tea.. dinner at Gor Tiao Lor, ordered malamian (FYI,it cost only rm4!!! Two huge prawn for you!! *warning* don't, I say don't, ever keep a prawn in your mouth......unless you want to know how is it like to keep a finger in your mouth...this is serious...). The next morning,which is today, took roti canai with curry poured all over on it for breakfast. Did i mention i ate curry mee for supper yesterday night?
I wonder how is my stomach's condition right now...no, I don't wanna know... Aiks...what i 'took in' yesterday, the consequences will be 'channeled out' today...or tomorrow.....
After taking advice from the president of the counsellor of my school =P who happened to sit beside me, i realised that some content I wrote in mt previous blog may cause emotional disturbance to someone who is close to me =). Well, i would like to ''eat'' back what I said previously and never mention anything about the incident anymore if it would make you happy. Better now? =)
Btw, my tummy hurts =(..I think I have taken something that does'nt agree with me..... hmmm..what did i ate yesterday? Well...Hokkien mee for lunch..extra spicy curry and bread for tea.. dinner at Gor Tiao Lor, ordered malamian (FYI,it cost only rm4!!! Two huge prawn for you!! *warning* don't, I say don't, ever keep a prawn in your mouth......unless you want to know how is it like to keep a finger in your mouth...this is serious...). The next morning,which is today, took roti canai with curry poured all over on it for breakfast. Did i mention i ate curry mee for supper yesterday night?
I wonder how is my stomach's condition right now...no, I don't wanna know... Aiks...what i 'took in' yesterday, the consequences will be 'channeled out' today...or tomorrow.....
Monday, March 2, 2009
*Guilty Conscience*
I stood there, away from her. Watching her talked and laughed. I could not stop the sense of guilt came rushing and filling my heart,my stomach cramped; spreading to my lungs...almost suffocating me....I took in a deep sharp breath, trying to ease the uncomfortable feeling locked inside my heart and apparently it did not work. Guilty conscience-its all i could feel. Looking into her eyes now took my courages and strength.
It will never be the same again,never...
It was all my fault, purely. If it was not me, she will be fine... It was me who brought nothing but this misery to her.... I'm the only one to be blamed, I put myself at fault. I sighed deeply.
She told me it was not my fault and things which meant to erase the sense of guilt. I knew that more or less she would somehow blamed me for that incident. Well, the damage is done.......nothing could be done now.
There is no turning back..... I doubt whether things could be same again, like always.
I tilted my head and saw her walking towards me. I caught a glimpse of her eyes and swore i saw something in there.....disappointment? hurt? hatred? I do not wish to reveal. Swallowing hard, I plastered a smile on my face. She smiled back. My stomach cramped again, with guilt and regrets. I shook my head slightly, trying to get rid of this feeling, at least temporarily.
Maybe, if she put the blame on me, I would feel better. I would rather let her yell at my face for bringing her into this than smiling to me......
She treated me so well and yet what have i done to her? I dont deserve this. I dont deserve everything she had done for and to me, I dont.
Its too late to apologize......
Stealing a quick glance at her before she left, i made a mental note- be independant, no more troubles for her.
Perphaps, the best way is to keep a distance from her, for her afterall. I do not know...or just do not want to know..............
Ja Ne~
It will never be the same again,never...
It was all my fault, purely. If it was not me, she will be fine... It was me who brought nothing but this misery to her.... I'm the only one to be blamed, I put myself at fault. I sighed deeply.
She told me it was not my fault and things which meant to erase the sense of guilt. I knew that more or less she would somehow blamed me for that incident. Well, the damage is done.......nothing could be done now.
There is no turning back..... I doubt whether things could be same again, like always.
I tilted my head and saw her walking towards me. I caught a glimpse of her eyes and swore i saw something in there.....disappointment? hurt? hatred? I do not wish to reveal. Swallowing hard, I plastered a smile on my face. She smiled back. My stomach cramped again, with guilt and regrets. I shook my head slightly, trying to get rid of this feeling, at least temporarily.
Maybe, if she put the blame on me, I would feel better. I would rather let her yell at my face for bringing her into this than smiling to me......
She treated me so well and yet what have i done to her? I dont deserve this. I dont deserve everything she had done for and to me, I dont.
Its too late to apologize......
Stealing a quick glance at her before she left, i made a mental note- be independant, no more troubles for her.
Perphaps, the best way is to keep a distance from her, for her afterall. I do not know...or just do not want to know..............
Ja Ne~
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
*Understanding*
I know your prowess and here i declare that I do not have any intention to win you or whatever it is.... You are so *censored*...*censored*
It hurts when you said something like that to me,do you realise that?perphaps not...I dont blame you. But please do not expect i could cope up exactly what you have about your prowess.
Please...be more understanding would you?
I have just achieved a little success and am trying to improve myself...how could you jz break my confidence like pulverizing an ant on the ground?
Im sick of you telling me what to do
Im sick of you looking down on me
Im sick of......
DAMN IT!!!!
Ja Ne~
It hurts when you said something like that to me,do you realise that?perphaps not...I dont blame you. But please do not expect i could cope up exactly what you have about your prowess.
Please...be more understanding would you?
I have just achieved a little success and am trying to improve myself...how could you jz break my confidence like pulverizing an ant on the ground?
Im sick of you telling me what to do
Im sick of you looking down on me
Im sick of......
DAMN IT!!!!
Ja Ne~
Saturday, January 17, 2009
*Silence Pain*
I lied on the bed, staring at the ceiling blankly. Could'nt bother to blink my eyes. My mind echoeing what she said to me. I thought we were friends, one of my best of friends........
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I closed my eyes, allowing my mind rushing through all the memories we had together, all the things we shared, bitter or sweet. I woke up and leaned lightly against the window spotting two little kids playing happily, reflecting what we used to be. My lips curled into a smile. We used to be like that together, everytime together.....always. Who knows time would change a person in such a drastic manner? She had her new friends and I have been shoved aside. Whenever I'm with her, i will just be a shadow or sometimes I'm invisible. It took me long enough to realize that there is distance between us with an invisible wall parting it......
Its dusk now. The evening sky was beautiful painted in golden orange colour. The sun shone gently on the land producing a perfectly warming scenery. Breathing in the sweet scent of the breeze deeply, somehow it soothed me. I felt better.
I know words are sharper than weapons, but i never tasted it until then. Who knows a few sentences hurt so much? It was like a blunt weapon stabbing right into my heart, giving a slow torturous throbbing pain. It had left a scar there, marking it as disappointment.......betrayal. I trusted her too much, believing her that she would never hurt me, physically or emotionally. And yet, she hurt my feelings. My mind flashed to the moment, when she smiled at me curtly while spitting out those hurtfull sentences. I was not sure she did it intentionally or unintentionaly but the damage is done...... Nothing could change it.
I heard giggles. My eyes rested on the two little kids. They waved at me, i nodded and smiled lightly. If our friendship was as pure as theirs, I thought.
I looked up to the sky again, taking one last view of the scenery before I get back to my work. I know, everything will never be the same again,never.....
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I forgive but not forget......
Ja Ne~
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I closed my eyes, allowing my mind rushing through all the memories we had together, all the things we shared, bitter or sweet. I woke up and leaned lightly against the window spotting two little kids playing happily, reflecting what we used to be. My lips curled into a smile. We used to be like that together, everytime together.....always. Who knows time would change a person in such a drastic manner? She had her new friends and I have been shoved aside. Whenever I'm with her, i will just be a shadow or sometimes I'm invisible. It took me long enough to realize that there is distance between us with an invisible wall parting it......
Its dusk now. The evening sky was beautiful painted in golden orange colour. The sun shone gently on the land producing a perfectly warming scenery. Breathing in the sweet scent of the breeze deeply, somehow it soothed me. I felt better.
I know words are sharper than weapons, but i never tasted it until then. Who knows a few sentences hurt so much? It was like a blunt weapon stabbing right into my heart, giving a slow torturous throbbing pain. It had left a scar there, marking it as disappointment.......betrayal. I trusted her too much, believing her that she would never hurt me, physically or emotionally. And yet, she hurt my feelings. My mind flashed to the moment, when she smiled at me curtly while spitting out those hurtfull sentences. I was not sure she did it intentionally or unintentionaly but the damage is done...... Nothing could change it.
I heard giggles. My eyes rested on the two little kids. They waved at me, i nodded and smiled lightly. If our friendship was as pure as theirs, I thought.
I looked up to the sky again, taking one last view of the scenery before I get back to my work. I know, everything will never be the same again,never.....
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I forgive but not forget......
Ja Ne~
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
* A New Year, A New Hope, A New Life *
Ooohhhhh!!!! Its school time again..Weeeeeee =)
STPM here I come!!!(growl*)LOL!!
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Haih... This year i remained in the same class with Kim,Angela,Suan eng ( pity me...... =P) and soo peng them. Aiks..Juey's not same class with me anymore and im kinda like cant get used to it <,< ( Note* no side thinking please=.= tired of u guys' babbling). You know, absence do really make heart grew fonder. Last year i never appreciate the existance of Juey (come hit me la noob =P) and now.....i mean, HELLO, things change. I cant laugh like i did last year, those ROFL and LOL. I mean, she always laugh with me and it did not look silly when two people doing it. And imagine, you laugh like hell there alone and im sure everybody will like >.> you.. Its like ''MuahahHAHAhahaha...ahemmmmm (cough*) hemmm...hmmm... then -_-''' ''
Aiks...she always used to do stuff for me and im kinda getting dependent on her ( you know what =Pwant me to list out?)and now i have no one to help me =( *sob,sob*. I think i really relied on her..way too relied on her.... Dont want to admit it but kinda miss her......
Argghhh...and You-Know-Who is so annoyingly annoying and its getting on my nerve each day (duhh..its only 3 days...) YEA 3 DAYS and it is already tiring. Gosh how am i goin to carry myself for the rest of the year???.. sigh..pity myself. Damnit Juey, you're in other class now and i have to bear all the unwanted-disgusting-nonsense thingy from You-Know-Who.
Well, my class is quite fine but it seems its seperated into groups -_- not that united as last year's =/. Maybe things will get better soon. Ms Wee said a class with students who are cooperative often do better during exam and i strongly believe it =). Ooh and, Aung Swee Peng teaches us Chemistry and im glad that she is my form teacher again =D. She's such a nice teacher. And of course i missed my last year's math teacher :(, was hoping that she would teach me again..oh well...what is mine is mine. Destiny.....<.<
*Breathe in deeply*
Okay, in this new year i have to work harder and must not let HER look down on me. Hmmph!! no one look down on me unless he/she is taller than me!!!!! =P (all come hit me la...lalala~)<,<
I realise how much i have missed out last year and really have to buckle down to achieve my goal. (ahhh~ doctor~im waiting....know what i mean? LOL!!!) *chuckle*
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what??!!
Ja Ne~
STPM here I come!!!(growl*)LOL!!
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...=.=
Haih... This year i remained in the same class with Kim,Angela,Suan eng ( pity me...... =P) and soo peng them. Aiks..Juey's not same class with me anymore and im kinda like cant get used to it <,< ( Note* no side thinking please=.= tired of u guys' babbling). You know, absence do really make heart grew fonder. Last year i never appreciate the existance of Juey (come hit me la noob =P) and now.....i mean, HELLO, things change. I cant laugh like i did last year, those ROFL and LOL. I mean, she always laugh with me and it did not look silly when two people doing it. And imagine, you laugh like hell there alone and im sure everybody will like >.> you.. Its like ''MuahahHAHAhahaha...ahemmmmm (cough*) hemmm...hmmm... then -_-''' ''
Aiks...she always used to do stuff for me and im kinda getting dependent on her ( you know what =Pwant me to list out?)and now i have no one to help me =( *sob,sob*. I think i really relied on her..way too relied on her.... Dont want to admit it but kinda miss her......
Argghhh...and You-Know-Who is so annoyingly annoying and its getting on my nerve each day (duhh..its only 3 days...) YEA 3 DAYS and it is already tiring. Gosh how am i goin to carry myself for the rest of the year???.. sigh..pity myself. Damnit Juey, you're in other class now and i have to bear all the unwanted-disgusting-nonsense thingy from You-Know-Who.
Well, my class is quite fine but it seems its seperated into groups -_- not that united as last year's =/. Maybe things will get better soon. Ms Wee said a class with students who are cooperative often do better during exam and i strongly believe it =). Ooh and, Aung Swee Peng teaches us Chemistry and im glad that she is my form teacher again =D. She's such a nice teacher. And of course i missed my last year's math teacher :(, was hoping that she would teach me again..oh well...what is mine is mine. Destiny.....<.<
*Breathe in deeply*
Okay, in this new year i have to work harder and must not let HER look down on me. Hmmph!! no one look down on me unless he/she is taller than me!!!!! =P (all come hit me la...lalala~)<,<
I realise how much i have missed out last year and really have to buckle down to achieve my goal. (ahhh~ doctor~im waiting....know what i mean? LOL!!!) *chuckle*
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what??!!
Ja Ne~
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
*Driving Mania*
Guess what? Yesterday was my first step to my adulthood (pardon me? <.<) Well, i finally went for my driving lesson. Yay me!!
Suan Eng : ''you rocks jeanne!!'' ...=P
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*Speechless*
Okay, the insturctor taught me all the basic thingy and asked me to drive the car. I was so nervous when i started the ignition and drove using 1st gear( 1st gear?thats all?..=.=). I mean, HELLO, i have never touched the driver seat for all my life. However, it felt good when the car started moving. way to go jeanne! Booya!!
The insturctor taught me the ''3moves'' thingy and its obviously killing me. The car stering was so, tight is the only word i could describe. Its like trying to open a container with vacuum inside <,< (ok..not that tight...) Thanks to the instructor, finally i was able to turn the stering to the maximum. Arggh my hands feel sore now. Then he taught me parking skills which i found it really difficult cz i cant memorize the steps. Its was so frustrating and im even more frustrated when some guys there kinda making fun at me and laugh at me. Damn you all!! I will show you once i learnt to drive on road!!! You guys will pay for it...I WILL AND I SHALL.
The last thing the instructor taught me is to drive up a small hill. I found it easy compared to the previous ones. At first i thought it was difficult. And i was like, well here goes nothing and accelerated just after i stepped on the oil pedal. Then i quickly slammed the brake when my instinct ask to =P. And WOW!!My first attempt was so perfect. The wheels were in between the 2 boundaries with equal distance. Ahh~gifted skill~ -.-..
Erm...There's one small incident happened when i was going down the hill. The car kinda out of control when i turned to the right and it almost knocked the pole and skipped into the bush. Whooa...it almost scare the shit out of me !!! The instructor gulped and gasped at the same time LOL !!... My face almost turned pale man !!!!(NOTE : *ALMOST*).
After the 3 hour driving session, my muscle ached like nothing especially my leg. I never realised controlling the clucth will be so energy-consuming.=.= Oh well, no pain no gain =)......there's a pain,there's a gain=P
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Hmmm, i think i will be able to get my P license after Chinese New Year =\. Yeepee~ !! *I believe i can drive~ I believe i can drive it right~* =.=''
Ohh~ I wont and never be drivers like JUEY and my brother. They are of the same species -- reckless drivers. *care your loves one, care your life*
Oh well, wish me lucky in my next driving lesson which i have no idea it would be when =.= .
Ja Ne~
Suan Eng : ''you rocks jeanne!!'' ...=P
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*Speechless*
Okay, the insturctor taught me all the basic thingy and asked me to drive the car. I was so nervous when i started the ignition and drove using 1st gear( 1st gear?thats all?..=.=). I mean, HELLO, i have never touched the driver seat for all my life. However, it felt good when the car started moving. way to go jeanne! Booya!!
The insturctor taught me the ''3moves'' thingy and its obviously killing me. The car stering was so, tight is the only word i could describe. Its like trying to open a container with vacuum inside <,< (ok..not that tight...) Thanks to the instructor, finally i was able to turn the stering to the maximum. Arggh my hands feel sore now. Then he taught me parking skills which i found it really difficult cz i cant memorize the steps. Its was so frustrating and im even more frustrated when some guys there kinda making fun at me and laugh at me. Damn you all!! I will show you once i learnt to drive on road!!! You guys will pay for it...I WILL AND I SHALL.
The last thing the instructor taught me is to drive up a small hill. I found it easy compared to the previous ones. At first i thought it was difficult. And i was like, well here goes nothing and accelerated just after i stepped on the oil pedal. Then i quickly slammed the brake when my instinct ask to =P. And WOW!!My first attempt was so perfect. The wheels were in between the 2 boundaries with equal distance. Ahh~gifted skill~ -.-..
Erm...There's one small incident happened when i was going down the hill. The car kinda out of control when i turned to the right and it almost knocked the pole and skipped into the bush. Whooa...it almost scare the shit out of me !!! The instructor gulped and gasped at the same time LOL !!... My face almost turned pale man !!!!(NOTE : *ALMOST*).
After the 3 hour driving session, my muscle ached like nothing especially my leg. I never realised controlling the clucth will be so energy-consuming.=.= Oh well, no pain no gain =)......there's a pain,there's a gain=P
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swt..
Hmmm, i think i will be able to get my P license after Chinese New Year =\. Yeepee~ !! *I believe i can drive~ I believe i can drive it right~* =.=''
Ohh~ I wont and never be drivers like JUEY and my brother. They are of the same species -- reckless drivers. *care your loves one, care your life*
Oh well, wish me lucky in my next driving lesson which i have no idea it would be when =.= .
Ja Ne~
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