Tuesday, December 30, 2008

*Driving Mania*

Guess what? Yesterday was my first step to my adulthood (pardon me? <.<) Well, i finally went for my driving lesson. Yay me!!
Suan Eng : ''you rocks jeanne!!'' ...=P
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*Speechless*
Okay, the insturctor taught me all the basic thingy and asked me to drive the car. I was so nervous when i started the ignition and drove using 1st gear( 1st gear?thats all?..=.=). I mean, HELLO, i have never touched the driver seat for all my life. However, it felt good when the car started moving. way to go jeanne! Booya!!
The insturctor taught me the ''3moves'' thingy and its obviously killing me. The car stering was so, tight is the only word i could describe. Its like trying to open a container with vacuum inside <,< (ok..not that tight...) Thanks to the instructor, finally i was able to turn the stering to the maximum. Arggh my hands feel sore now. Then he taught me parking skills which i found it really difficult cz i cant memorize the steps. Its was so frustrating and im even more frustrated when some guys there kinda making fun at me and laugh at me. Damn you all!! I will show you once i learnt to drive on road!!! You guys will pay for it...I WILL AND I SHALL.
The last thing the instructor taught me is to drive up a small hill. I found it easy compared to the previous ones. At first i thought it was difficult. And i was like, well here goes nothing and accelerated just after i stepped on the oil pedal. Then i quickly slammed the brake when my instinct ask to =P. And WOW!!My first attempt was so perfect. The wheels were in between the 2 boundaries with equal distance. Ahh~gifted skill~ -.-..
Erm...There's one small incident happened when i was going down the hill. The car kinda out of control when i turned to the right and it almost knocked the pole and skipped into the bush. Whooa...it almost scare the shit out of me !!! The instructor gulped and gasped at the same time LOL !!... My face almost turned pale man !!!!(NOTE : *ALMOST*).
After the 3 hour driving session, my muscle ached like nothing especially my leg. I never realised controlling the clucth will be so energy-consuming.=.= Oh well, no pain no gain =)......there's a pain,there's a gain=P
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Hmmm, i think i will be able to get my P license after Chinese New Year =\. Yeepee~ !! *I believe i can drive~ I believe i can drive it right~* =.=''
Ohh~ I wont and never be drivers like JUEY and my brother. They are of the same species -- reckless drivers. *care your loves one, care your life*
Oh well, wish me lucky in my next driving lesson which i have no idea it would be when =.= .


Ja Ne~

Thursday, December 25, 2008

*Christmas Warmth*

First of all,Merry Christmas to all of you !!! =)

Okay, as what my previous blog posted,it's about my emptiness feeling in my heart. But the feeling i possessed the next day was a 180degree turnover. My heart was filled with warmth ....=D .

Well, it all started in the evening. Juey suddenly visited my house without notify me earlier (courtesy much =.= nawh...jk jk LOL!!). Unfortunately i was not at home that time. Issh, if she came 20 minutes earlier or 5 minutes late, i will be at home =/.Oh well, destiny.... <,<'' .......... ..... Okay back to the main point. When i returned home, i saw my present and my brother told me it was from JUEY. I cautiously unwrapped the present ( fearing it may be some pratical jokes from her=.=). Well its not !! It was a nice fancy pencil box which i have longed of. You see, I have went through my lower 6 without pencil box.......*embarassed* And i never expect that she would take my word seriously. *sniff* I like it so much =) thanks JUEY!! *pssp* I feel abit guilty cz i had nothing to present her =\. I never expect she would give me gift...... Oh well, I'm sure she wont mind. Christmas is all about giving,not receiving~ (=.= what an excuse.......) Then i saw 3 cards placed nicely in the plastic bag (well 2 of them not exactly ''card'', its A4 paper folded into half <,<). The first card was quite beautiful but the handwritting inside was disasterous !!!(come hit ma la JUEY =P). It is for my family members EXCEPT me -.- The content was like : MERRY CHRISTMAS TO JEANNE'S MOTHER,BROTHER AND FATHER + DOGS I was speechless when i read this......(wanted to curse her but i controlled...) Anyway, the other card was from her cousin. So sweet =). What a nice guy. And the last card was from none other than JUEY. I was kinda touched by the content of the card *sniff*. My eye actully get watery after reading the content *sniff sniff*. (btw, her drawing skill is pure gifted) Dont worry JUEY~ Nothing will ever change !!!! =) I felt warmth in my heart...

I will appreciate what you have done for me =D *goosebumps* =P
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Ahemm... I slept at 2.00am if not mistaken and woke up 8.30am in the morning. And guess what !! I receive 7 messages from her!!Time ranging from 3.15am to 7.30am.... Come on girl!! Do'nt you need sleep? (Btw,there are so many ''haha''s in the messages. Do you think she's drunk?)This is insane....I'm totally speechless.....
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Ja Ne~

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

*SenTimeNt*

The whether was bad tonight,so was my mood...
I think.
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Well, actually i felt nothing. Nothing. Emptiness filled my heart, with such force that pushed me to the edge...leaving me behind was a souless body. I wished i could feel something. Anything. Hopelessness,despair,fear,sad,anger.... But i could'nt. I felt nothing...at all...
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It had left a void in my world which can never be filled.
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It started to rain lightly.

I looked out from my window, breeze caressed my face. I breathed in the humid air. Its cold...like the world. I peered into the darkness of the starless night, hoping to see something, to at least discern hope again. Once again, i see nothing. The sky was so dark tonight,eeriely dark. I stared into the sky, allowing darkness embrace me,own me and lead me to the world of another...a world full of hope and joy...
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I do not know how long i had stared into the onyx sky,seeking for a trace of light. None.
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Moments later the rain stopped,the sky cleared....then I saw my 'guardian',two of them. the only things would make me feel secure and safe. The sky turned clearer. I looked up to the sky again,spotting it. The Star of Guardian was there.Shone as brightly as ever. Another looking as mighty as always. They had guarded me, protected me and never leaving me alone since i was little. My lip turned into a small curve, i smiled. A bitter smile.

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I bited my bottom lip,took in a deep breath,coldness filled my lungs, i felt good. My neck-length raven hair swayed as cold breeze of darkness caressed my cheek.
I closed my eye, licked my bottom lip enjoying the taste of the cold breeze....the taste of the Hope. I smile genuinely....


Ja Ne~

Thursday, December 18, 2008

*5th Episode of Jeanneology*

Wow,its been four days since i last wrote my blog. Well, i have nothing better to write since i spend almost all my time DotA-ing. Arghh!!When will i stop??!!!
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*A voice* ''erm like now?''
DUHH, I'm blogging NOW
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Dont show me that LOOK on your face.......
LOL!!!

So,what am i going to write now? Hmmm...anything? Well,what anything? Anything about anything? Argghh cut it off,it will take forever =.=
Well ok, thanks to shengdi (chatting with him in msn), i realised how close am i untill school re-open. 2 MORE FISHING™ WEEKS and tadaa, back to my respectable-honourable-totally cool-interesting-school again (why do i feel guilty saying this? *shurg*)
Oh man....i dont feel like going back to school. I mean,i spent my time SO VERY unwisely and i have'nt get the back-to-school-mood besides i do not wish to SEE someone again.
Haiz, im kinda regret why i dont spent my time wisely and i should..........(*the voice again* pssp,can u elaborate about the do-not-wish-to-see person?)
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*speechless*
Fine. Well, theoritically shes a girl. <,<(duhh...of course she is).I will not tell whether shes in the same or different class with me this year because there are only few classes in form 6 (but JUEY knows who am i talking about =P). Oh before that, i wonder will i be in the same class with her. And if i am, damnit. And if im not, thanks KAMI. Well i probably will same class with her =\. Sometimes she really pissed me off. She act as if shes so great,so pretty,so friend-likeable,so perfect in everthing while the fact is shes not.(PS: all those good points are my personality and characteristic and gift~ Na nana nana na..come hit me =P) Besides,she should really watch her mouth when she talk especially to ME!!! Who the HELL she think she is? I wonder how can i shut her big mouth up =\.she is not the boss around. And she loves to take advantages over people and will kicked them aside after using them.SO NASTY.Plus, she LOVES to talk bad things about people and its like in chapters. ( I do it sometimes but without bad intention. Trust me,i'll forget what i said after 5 secs) Well, I cant say anything more about it just incase she happened to visit my blog and find out ( wonder if she has a blog).Oh oh maybe even if she read it she wont realise its about her cz she is ''way too perfect''. (*that voice again* pssp, just want to know..... *ME* shut up la you,keep pssp-ing for what?Stop interupting me.Stupid voice-come out-from-no-where.)

Well,i have one word.....
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EAT SHIT LA YOU!!!


Ja Ne~

Saturday, December 13, 2008

~4th Episode of The Jeanneology~

Its Saturday!!! The day i look forward the most. Shalalalala~Shalala In The Morning~

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>.>? *nUtS*

Oh shut up.



Well, I played DotA for like the whole afternoon and it certainly boost up my mood =) Pssp, i won 3 ladder games straight.

Hmmm.There's something bothering me since i started playing DotA online. I just do not understand why there will be at least one leaver in the game? I mean,HELLO, whats the point of the great Olympic Game being held for?As remembrance to the God of Zeus?Nawh, that was like thousands years ago. Well,through the Olympic, some ethical attitude can be planted in ones heart all around the world. For example, small kids can know it is not appropriate to leave a game before the game ends or simply destroy the game. Oh and and, the spirit of never-give-up can be easily seen in the game and it had proven to bring success to one who possess determination and courages.

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OK, back to the DotA. You see, what's the point they leave their teammates behind which are facing a higher chance of losing the game? They din't even put in any effort to change the situation and there they go,be a leaver in the game. There's only one word can describe them,NOOB!!! Come on people!!! Its just a game and it does'nt mean you have to win it, just enjoy the process.Feel it.

You know.This could bring a large impact towards your very own life. If u can't accept failure, how are you going to succeed in life? You cant just ''leave'' your life or sweep everything under the carpet and ignore the failures you met. You have to face it with your own strength and might.And of course, with determination.

Next is, there's lots of lots of players (mostly when they are winning the game) who love to hurl insults to their opponent team. They would shoot mean words to the opponent team and make the team feel affronted .Are you guys having inferiority complex? I mean,HELLO,etiquette MUCH!!! When you cant say anything nice,dont say it at all. Show some honours to yourself,guys.

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What??!!!



Ja Ne~

Friday, December 12, 2008

~3rd Episode of The Jeanneology~

Uhh...Nothing special happened today.Well, everything went on quite well.Ahhh~ What a serene day. However, peace come before storm!!
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Nawh,nothing happened =D
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Arggghhhh!!!FINE.Just write something,anything!!!
OK. For the past few weeks, i realised that i had developed a very non-ladylike manner i should say=\. I found myself have the urge to spat out badwords whenever things are not going my way. Fortunately, i controlled quite well.....but not for today-.-(kinda having mood swing=\)
Well, with my pure genius i manage to change the F word into FISH™ ( its trademark-ed..use it only with my PERMISSION or being sued =D). I dont know what is going on with me man!!!! Oh by the way, JUEY also has that habit and her badwords is quite ''strong'' i can say (*HINT: it even involve her dad!!! well,i prefer it involve her cousin~hehehe).
And guess what?YAM has showed some 'signs and symptoms' about that non-ladylike manner!!! Gosh!! Imagine,those words come out from her mouth..AHHHH!!!! I cant watch!!!...and hear!!
Hmmm, maybe its because i play DotA and my clanmates especially my clan lord LOVE badwords=.=. And that eventually bring me into their world??Oh no, dont pls. Well, at least i know how to control myself from crossing the border =). I'm a elegant,intelligent,sophisticated,bright and polite young lady anyway.
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What??!!! I'm just telling the very truth from my heart!!. Ooh no you dont show me that damn face of yours,its wickedly ugly ( YES,YOU!!DONT!!).Hmmph!
This is it.

Ja Ne~

Thursday, December 11, 2008

!3rd Episode of The Jeanneology~ *part1?*

ARGGHHH!!! My peacefull mood have been ruined by J'UEY'=.= (calm down juey).
You see, i woke up from my nap(my just-wake-up-mood is always bad) and YAM msn me and told me a ''good news''.( She updated her msn into live messenger!!!Which means i can spam nudge on her..MUahahahHAHahaHAhahaha...ahem...)...or not..she's on busy status-.-.
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WAT??!!Its fun to do that, especially on her~~
OK let the story begins.....
JUEY's cousin online(i do not know that user is JUEY or her cousin and im practically confused).He/she called me and i replied.Then that user keep play ''game'' with me and show me all those annoyingly annoying emo icons =.= and refused to tell me who is 'him/her.This really tested my patience man!!! (*Imagine ~ someone keep hehehe kekeke hahaha there and lalala infront of me without telling me who the FISH™ is she/him.(pssp..no bad word)
Then i reached my limit and blurted out.Then then, ''JUEY'' admited it was her and apologized to me(for what?=.=) and told me she was happy yadda yaddda....All i want is to know who the FISH™ is that user and i won't mind him/her to hehehe kekeke hahaha at/with me after i find out his/her identity.
Oh before that happened 'she' asked me what am i doing and i replied her ''saya sedang mentulan''LOL!!!(i know i know..no badword..but that is what i replied 'her'...Hey i hardly use that word ok =P Its just an another word for fed up~). But then(after one minute), i felt that i have hurt 'her' feeling =X because i told 'her' ''whoever u r,forget what i wan to tell JUEY/ur cousin'' . Oh well...........
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And guess what? It was not JUEY afterall. Its her cousin ( him) HOW COULD HE DO THAT???!! (*rolled my eyes*)He played me!!!i almost being mad at JUEY!!!..Oh well, he flawed his reputation.*shrug*

Hmmm, i wonder when will KC return. I feel uncomfortable when she appear offline in my contact list,hehehe.Its true you know.Its kind of like,a ''secure'' feeling for me.Its like she will always be there when i need her (NOT that kind of need) especially when i reached my certain 'humanity' limits (DONT ASK ME AND DONT ASK KC =D) .

Ja Ne~

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

*2nd Episode of The Jeanneology Part 2?*

Ahhh~ I told JUEY what happened in my dream and she took it quite well. Besides, she said she would do that if it happens in reality......
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oh well, maybe she would,maybe she would'nt =\ But then think again, i think she would =.= arggh! whats wrong wif me?!(cant decide whether she-would or she-would'nt).Nawh..there wont be any mutated beasts on plane.....snake on plane???beasts on plane??LOL!
Asiks, i have sacrificed my napping time to tell her about my dream thing.(c...im so good =P) Do you know napping between 20-40 minutes can reduce heart attack rate by 30%?? And it can help.......(hey,cut it off!! we r not talking bout health here=.=..its all about ME!!)
oh here's are some ''TOUCHING'' moments~~
Kindly visit JUEY THE "COURAGE GIRL/BOY?=P" before read mine =)
And ACTION!!!

FaNtAnSticO JeAnNe dReAmT oF JuEY LaSt NiTe!!!gELi says (4:52 PM):
-.;-
juey says (4:52 PM):
eh if in real world
juey says (4:53 PM):
smth like that happen....
i think i wil cry lo
after i ask you all go in
thats my style
LOL
liao i will regret
hahahahahahahhahaha
FaNtAnSticO JeAnNe dReAmT oF JuEY LaSt NiTe!!!gELi says (4:53 PM):
u mean u will cry after ask us go in==?
then u go in oso lar


juey says (4:54 PM):
if all aslo go in
then the beast an zzua ar
must hv sm1 go block ma
or go fight
FaNtAnSticO JeAnNe dReAmT oF JuEY LaSt NiTe!!!gELi says (4:54 PM):
got point==
juey says (4:54 PM):
but m i really that.... when facing this situation..?
juey says (4:55 PM):
i dono la
hahaha
but usually hor
like when ppl got prob n that is our prob


FaNtAnSticO JeAnNe dReAmT oF JuEY LaSt NiTe!!!gELi says (4:55 PM):
yea== u like bo scared oso
juey says (4:55 PM):
i always be the 1 who stand out eh
dono leh
haha
mai so kam tong liao
FaNtAnSticO JeAnNe dReAmT oF JuEY LaSt NiTe!!!gELi says (4:56 PM):
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jz now u say stil nid sum1 to fight n block ma
i really got gan dong lo
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juey says (4:56 PM):
yea la
juey says (4:57 PM): <<------ talk crap=.=
you watch movie also knw la
like spider man will stand out ma
hahahhaha
FaNtAnSticO JeAnNe dReAmT oF JuEY LaSt NiTe!!!gELi says (4:57 PM):
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NOTE*I DO NOT KNOW WHETHER SHE IS ALIVE...SUSPENCE
END~!!
Wow..speechless right?
Btw,within this two weeks, i keep having weird dreams about deaths of my friends=\ it FREAKS me out man!!!
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I mean,hello,you experienced their deaths.Its so real and last week, i woke up crying. What on earth is wrong with me???!!!

Ja Ne~

*2nd Episode of The Jeanneology* ~part 1?~

GUESS WAT?!! I actually dreamt of JUEY yesterday!!!!walau eh.=.=
creepy much! =P jk jk..Well,its not a nightmare and erm...i wonder will she do that if the dream become reality?!Coz i was so touched by what she had done for me in the dream. That dream brought me to the extent of making me almost shed my tears...ALMOST!!! (make it clear..ALMOST)
Hmmm..should i write the content here??? nawh..maybe not.
NOTE* NO NAGATIVE SCENES OR ANY OF THE SCENEs YOU GUYS WILL PROBABLY FIGURE OUT(especially for one like kim and eng)
Btw, i sms-ed JUEY for like 3 and a half hours ago and i yet to receive any reply =\ (she claimed i took half year to reply her msg and i now im proud to "claim" that she will be taking 3 years to reply mine.Hmmph!!!)
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Ja Ne~

*1st Episode of Jeanneology*

Well thanks to kc, i finally have my blog now. =D
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No idea wat to write yo.
OK!! right now, i'm being lc by a guy whom i met in dota which happened be my clanmate.I was so >.> by almost everything he said except the part which he taught me math and chem =P. arggh...when will he stop?! we keep having verbal spar everyday and surprisingly i found out my catt skill is getting better and better !wait till school reopens and i will show my skills of on SOMEONE..MmmMMuhAhAHAhaha..ahem...
Next...Noob JUEY actually has her own blog@.@ (so am i~....) She was like so surprised (more like shocked) when i told her i have created a blog..duhhhhh.. Someone like JUEY has a blog,which means everyone can have..erm MUST have a blog!!!Its a must-have thing since she owns a blog~~
Well,this is it. My very FIRST blog written by me!!!though its not a good blog.....(pssp..unlike someone(JUEY) which was written by someone else!! shhh!!)
OK!!!can any1 pls tell me the CORRECT definition of lansi???(haven off with tat issue=.=)