*SenTimeNt*

The whether was bad tonight,so was my mood...
I think.
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Well, actually i felt nothing. Nothing. Emptiness filled my heart, with such force that pushed me to the edge...leaving me behind was a souless body. I wished i could feel something. Anything. Hopelessness,despair,fear,sad,anger.... But i could'nt. I felt nothing...at all...
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It had left a void in my world which can never be filled.
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It started to rain lightly.
I looked out from my window, breeze caressed my face. I breathed in the humid air. Its cold...like the world. I peered into the darkness of the starless night, hoping to see something, to at least discern hope again. Once again, i see nothing. The sky was so dark tonight,eeriely dark. I stared into the sky, allowing darkness embrace me,own me and lead me to the world of another...a world full of hope and joy...
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I do not know how long i had stared into the onyx sky,seeking for a trace of light. None.
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Moments later the rain stopped,the sky cleared....then I saw my 'guardian',two of them. the only things would make me feel secure and safe. The sky turned clearer. I looked up to the sky again,spotting it. The Star of Guardian was there.Shone as brightly as ever. Another looking as mighty as always. They had guarded me, protected me and never leaving me alone since i was little. My lip turned into a small curve, i smiled. A bitter smile.
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I bited my bottom lip,took in a deep breath,coldness filled my lungs, i felt good. My neck-length raven hair swayed as cold breeze of darkness caressed my cheek.
I closed my eye, licked my bottom lip enjoying the taste of the cold breeze....the taste of the Hope. I smile genuinely....


Ja Ne~