*Simply =P*

Dunno what to write and post.....=P Well.....

If you love two person at the same time, choose the second one..

because if you really loved the first one, you wouldn't fall for the second...

半年里的第一个部落格

以前的我，对自己说过无论如何都要出国读书，

不管去哪里读，不在本地读就好，

说什么要享受独立的生活，

屁啦！！

现在的我，到了外国读书，

样样都要精打细算，

样样都要提防，

样样都要自己做，

样样都要自己买，

哪像以前那种有父母依赖的生活。

渐渐学会了不要把信任完全交给别人，

发觉原来世界上有这种人，那种人，那些人。

有时候会觉得人好恐怖，好阴险。

原本蛮好的朋友，

竟会因不知嫉妒什么而三番四次把刀带入谈话中。

还三番四次对其他人说那些不真实的故事。

更恐怖的是，

突然一夜之间，

你的一举一动突然变得跟我很相识。

屁啦！

不爽我就讲啦，何必做这种旁门左道的事呢？

顶不顺了！！

试看天天这些事都在重复性的发生，

有谁能顶呢？

糟！忘了读anatomy！

*Lone Ranger*

Okay..im gonna delay my holiday blog to the next coming-soon blog..

I was emotionally tired..

deeply disappointed..and even more disappointed about something that are not to be spoken here..

entirely confused..

And now..there's a void in my heart..lol..they say having a void in heart is not a good thing, but im fine with it..i just cant take it anymore..seriously.. I could feel my heart is lighter now..this is the real me..being a lone ranger is good..you are not obliged to anyone..well except my parents..lol..you are free to do things as u like and wish..speak whats in your mind without having ''certain'' worries..well of course not the sensitive issues in the country..haha..

I like the newly old me =)

Ja Ne~

*Europe Trip Part 1*

Okay!!..finally i post my holiday blog..ahhh..its been almost 4 months since i came back from Europe..kinda miss there..=(

Right..get back to work!! start copying whatever i wrote in my phone blog..

*note: there will be lots of grammar error and things you all might not understand..*

14/12/2009

Woohoo!reach Amsterdam..wow so many ang mou..haha..went to buy the metro tickets and shit..tak tau dia write apa..aiya cincai guess la..the button and the sequence should be the same as KL eh..yesh im right!!..

Almost lost in the station..Realize some angmou are helpfull and some are not.. Check in hostel..o.m.g the place is so beautiful..walau eh.. Have a walk and bought an unlimited ride ticket on all vehicles except boat..ride ride ride..so beautiful.. Dinner at Nam Kee..the chicken rice is so nice and the chicken is alot..cant finish it..the tea is so nice..different from malaysia eh..lehhma eh..total 18euro..means rm80..toot.. Walk again..so so cold..too cold till have to walk in some shops..walked in a mall..waa..so high class eh outfit all..so geng..unlike malaysia.... Walked in a grocery shop..waleh..one banana 0.70 euro..rm3.5..not setandan is sebiji!..siao ki.. Reach hostel..roommate is a friendly Taiwanese..sleep at 9pm..

15/12/2009

Wake at 7am..din bath at all since yesterday..not planning to bath today..haha..brush teeth wash face..oh my gosh receive juey sms..happy..but reply her d straight no money..cant reply her d..cham..wonder what she doing now in China.. Eat breakfast..yum..check out but leave the luggage at the hostel..go walk walk walk again..this time cincai walk..take photo..lehh..leng ka pua si..leng ka tulan.. Realize dutch people are all so beautiful.. Sit tram and go to flea market..wah..alot of things..the prices are almost above queensbay and gurney..bought a cute boots..super offer..10euro..rm50..prepare for next trip to japan..but not now la..walk walk walk..hungry..bought a fries..2.3euro..rm11.5..same thing..cold till tulan..got two japanese guy keep look at me and smile..dunno why..maybe i look like japanese..lol..back to central station and continue walk..cold till headache..so pain..tahan tahan..back to hostel take luggage..oh my gosh..so heavy..70% of weight is my bro eh food and clothes..drag myself to metro station..the pull luggage too heavy..as struggling downstairs..a chinese man offer help but i rejected..he seems rushing..those angmou look at me and walk pass nia.. miss the station and have to sit back again..meet a chinese old lady..dunno from wat country eh..finally reach bus station..it was only 4somthing pm..i wait and sleep and wait till 5.30pm..then walked to another station near it..waleh..sipek aikun..sleep again till 7something and check in for bus..sit same row with a Negro lady..thought she very find fault 1 but realize not..she is damn funny..11something pm..eat at mcd..so sleepy..cant adapt to it.. Malaysia now is 6am..

16/12/2009

3something am..go for border checking..wa..almost cant pass..the officer keep look at me very long..then whole bus go inside a ferry..to london.. Waleh the ferry is like a cruise..high class..4something am..reach england..sleep again..till 6something am reach..walk to find the hostel..oh.my.god.walk till 2hours and more only find tiok..dunno wat bus to sit..my leg pain like dunno what..cannot ask cab..100pound ma cham..check in d but cant stay in yet till 2pm..the nice receptionist guy introduce us where to go..1st stop go camden town..got many chinese there..suddenly snow..so excited..haha..wonder juey there also got snow o not..met a girl selling food..shes from Seremban..dunno why meet tiok chinese feel so happy..eat the wan tan soup they sell..not so nice eh..fake wan tan..2pound..rm11.2..3biji and abit vegetable.... Then went to Madame Thusaad ..the wax museum..wow..some waxes are so real..espicially nicole kidman..and zack..then went to british museum..saw many Egypt thing..then leg too pain d..bei tahan..go back to hostel..after bath..rest awhile..suddenly got a guy come in check locker..cz our room is open by code eh..dunno who is that guy..a bit scared.. Dinner at hostel too..ate spaghetti carbonara..quite nice..sambil watch football with the big guys.. Chelsea and dunno what team..got a guy ask me support which team..i said M.U..then he buu-ed me..say Chelsea is the best..then ask me Malaysia support which team most..i cincai say M.U also..then he say Chelsea going to be top..lol..then i realize Chelsea is just my hostel opposite the river nia..luckily they din par me..haha..after dinner went online..issh..lai bu ji sign out it auto cut d..sien..wow just when i brushing teeth..saw two person enter my room..new roommate..they from china which study in Newcastle..very friendly..lol..very nice..sleep

*Hmmm*

Hmmmm..should i post my holiday phone-diary all in one shot or one per day???

*Struck Dumb*

I will never forget this day..today..the day i receive the greatest disappointment..

three harmless words joined together to produce a deadly weapon..

there is no other words could describe except hurtful..

for you it may be shallow..but for me..its everything.....

Ja Ne~

*Its Time*

A lovely day walking through fields of flowers,
Thinking you have all the powers,
Until you say we need to talk,
Then we go for a nice walk,
You say; I think our last day, will be today,
I sit here alone, watching you walk away.

hey! haven open my blog since i back from europe. Man..i miss the winter over there *was cursing the cold weather when i was half frozen =P* miss the snow, miss the chilling cold, miss the sensation of chiliing wind blow right into ur mouth and nose..LOL..why am i writing this? because im sweating right now even the fan is on!!! arggh!!!..
ok im good...
that trip make me realize alot..erm such as..ang mou is not what we thought they are..at least what i thought..polite..kind..gentleman..clean..friendly..helpful these elements are not found in many ang mou..they are just like us asians..some are good and some are not good..well they have something worth to praise..everywhere they go,they seems to bring a book along..lol..waiting for bus..in the tram..in the train..in the metro..90% of them are reading books..
about the cleanliness..well england and holland are clean..but paris...teruk la..rubbish alot..and some of their toilets are not really clean..
caught a flu due to the cold weather and the condition worsen thanks to the eiffel tower..
going to post the ''diary'' i wrote in my phone everyday incase i something happen to my phone..


Ja Ne~

*confused*

I'm confused.
That second could be so good, and the next second could be so heart brokening. Perphaps there's some miscommunication, perphaps i was so hated that i have to receive such treatment. Well, as long the first party feels good with it, i have to be fine with it.

Learned

I learned this is not everything. In fact, nothing is everything.

I learned promises can be made easily and be broken easily. In fact, breaking a promise is so much easier than making a promise.

I learned what is it today will not be the same tomorrow. In fact, what is it now will be different in the next second.

I learned caring too much for someone is another way of annoying someone. In fact, simple gesture of care could annoy someone so much.

I learned three potassium ions pumped in and 2 sodium ions pumped out. Membrane of axon is more permeable to potassium ions so it diffuse out. Making the axon more negative. This is resting potential......


Ja Ne~

*Mental note*

sigh...was just saying out what i think..my personal opinion,my view,my thoughts,my ways..it does not involve anyone in it,its about me,about how i do this and that..
Learnt my lesson, choose my word carefully that is.=)

*Thoughts*

It's time to face it...
face the fact...
face the reality...
face what you are meant to meet...
face the truth...

the world don't evolve around you,
you are not the center of everything,
you don't expect people around you to see things as what you see,

sometimes,
you think the one closest to you understand you,
maybe they are not,
not at all.

when someone wish to spend their time,
they will be there for you,
when they do not wish to do so,
they are gone...

By the way, a notes for me, mutation between us is occurring.

*null*

Feels so....argggh dont know how to describe that feeling...

why......why it ended up like this??

what did i do??.........

*Frustrations*

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!!!!!

this has to be put to a STOP.......

I have wasted so much energy on THIS and I'm tired!!!

Its not WORTH it okay!!!!

Its so obvious and NOTHING'S gonna change it


WHAT AM I THINKING I AM???

*Nerd Alert*

OH MY GOD!!!!!! Recently I found myself having high affinity towards nerds. Gosh what happened to me??

NERD WARNING : HUAhahahHAhaha..ahem...stop it =.=

*More Title-less*

Aha! Finally, get my hair cut. Now that's more like it. I looked more tidy now and believe it or not, my head seems lighter now =D. Hmmph! I spent an almost one hour and made four trips to the saloon. Iish, I dont understand why those nerd students wanted to get their hair cut so eagerly. Its not like there was a discount or something. So like to cut, cut yourself la. Walau eh go there dont need petrol ar. My hair made me hot ka beh die liao ko want me made four trips to the saloon.

Argggh I'm so warm now (Mr.Sim said cannot use 'hot'=P). That haze thing is stil out there. And you know what, one of my neighbours which I consider them as inconsiderate people, they are still burning joss sticks outside their house. Not that kind of little joss sticks, its the BIG one. You know, the really huge one that burns for hours and hours? Yea, that's it. Walau eh, weather so hot liao stil burn. You want make people die ar. Bo die also half die la. Burning one BIG joss stick is still acceptable, but HELLO, twelve BIG joss sticks? That's way out of the mind. The heat produced from the burning joss sticks together with the heat trapped in the atmosphere by the haze is unbearable-.-.
There's nothing wrong praying, really. However, you pray to the Gods for some good karma or whatever they named it, but you make people sick at the same time (Include me! and little kids staying near your house). I'm sure the Gods wont be pleased to see this. I think as long you uuh sim, that's what counted.*Am I blamming that neighbour just because my body system is weak enough that it cant fight pathogens and make me sick?=.=*
Oh well anyway, I think someone told the family off and they din burn the joss stick today ='D. But stil, the effects are lasting, thats why I feel warm now. Hopefully tomorrow will be better since they stopped burning joss sticks today, BIG joss sticks I mean.
ARGGHHH juak ka beh si liao laaaaaa!!!I breathe out eh air also hot eh!!!
I guess I will just take a long leisurely shower now.


Ja Ne~

*Another Title-less*

The sun shone gently on the earth, birds chirped merrily on the branch. My phone alarm rang, slowly, I rose from the bed. Rubbing sleepiness off my eyes, I walked to my window. Ahhh..perfect weather. I smiled to myself as I saw .............

Woi, cut it off=.=

Anyway, as what I posted yesterday, that present wrapping thing.......I haven wrap it yet =.=...my bro is out to college so I should have all the time in the world to wrap the presents and now, I's writting blog here.WTH?! I cant be that lazy, can I?....whatever.

By the way, I want to get my hair cut today. Its been the third time i went to the saloon and its stil crowded with people, mostly students. WTH la!! school holiday stil want to get their hair cut. Holiday means we dont have to attend school lessons and why the hell they go to the saloon and get their hair cut???!! At least wait till Saturday or Sunday lah, now's only Wednesday.Hmmph!! Cut cut cut, duno why so like to cut=.=

Oh well, going to try my luck for the forth time.


Ja Ne~

*Title-less*

Sienz...they all went to Langkawi today. My msn contact list in this morning who onlined was like about 4 or 5 people only. Well I always feel more secure if I have lots of people online in my contack list, sounds weird huh...=/

Anyway, tomorrow is my bro's bday =D. Bought him presents!! My friends all say the presents are too expensive but I dont think so =.=. Speaking of presents.... oh gosh, I haven wrap the presents yet!! Just dumped them in my cupboard after I came back from Queensbay yesterday-.-.
Bought him face care products from the Bodyshop =). Hope he will like it.

Nothing happens today...I mean nothing happens today. NOT nothing SPEACIAL happnes today. I would rather something happens today which is not special...=.=

................
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What a dull blog I produced today.....just feel bored after doing some math.. Oh well, I guess I just get back to my math again.
Before that,WRAP THE PRESENTS!!!


Ja Ne~

*Am I?*

Am I having problem in making decisions? No,of course. Yes,definitely.No,of course. Yes,definitely.No,of course. Yes,definitely.No,of course. Yes,definitely.

Am I acting overly sensitive? Yes you are. No,you're not. Yes you are. No,you're not. Yes you are. No,you're not. Yes you are. No,you're not.

Am I laughing? Of course you are. Hell no. Of course you are. Hell no. Of course you are. Hell no. Of course you are. Hell no.

Am I crying? No,I'm not. Yes, you are.No,I'm not. Yes, you are.No,I'm not. Yes, you are.No,I'm not. Yes, you are.No,I'm not. Yes, you are.

Am I going to sleep? who cares.....=.=
...........
sigh....
why it has to be in this way....?


Ja Ne~

*Fatalistic*

Perphaps one day everything will change...LOL!! what am I saying? Changes are what everything need to experience, its just a matter of time. Time would show us everything, everything that had changed.
If something,concrict or abstract, experience changes slowly,slow enough not to let you realize. One day, when you look back, and found that it had changed tremandously. What can you do? Scary huh.

Once, I was naive enough to believe that things wont change. It will stay just the way they are, the way it should be, apparently I was terribly wrong. Wrong enough to hurt myself deep.....

Its been so long......

Then, I thought as long I hold tight on it, I can at least follow right behind the changes. Once again, I was wrong. Again, wrong enough to hurt myself even deeper. It hurt more when you witness the changes.....

I gave up......

I should have see it coming, but I chose to ignore believing it that it would stay just the way they are,they way they should....well,fate decide everything and we have no control over it.

I dont believe in destiny, I believe in fate.........

Ja Ne~